Today was quite difficult, at work there was some stress directed my way.
I feel self conscious and alone.
I wish there was someone I could return to with such issues to care for me.
I reflected a little on how with no one to look out for me I have been in the past. As I have recently thought of tiffany scarletts blog I compared it a little with her situation. Within her blog she had a situation whereby she lived with someone whom looked out for her and guided her with spankings. During this time she was mainly a student and this guiding seemed to cover that.
When I started notably becoming interested in spanking I was a student however I was and am alone, there was no one to put it in its place, guide it, or motivate me to stay on course with things.
Perhaps I could have done better at things if I had someone else guiding them. Or even to just tell me it was okay.
Although I have managed to get by on my own, I guess there is that something missing.
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